(well, before starting this article, let me first state:-
the given article is just an imaginary and a complete fiction. I wanted to write on this issue from quite early time and hence when i began to write it few days ago, i found writing it in the form of first person was easier... So i have written as if it is my self story... Writing after almost two months, any suggestions and comments are welcome..)
~~love leads us towards perfection~~
He had already attended his last lecture among us and as he is supposed to leave mumbai the other day for his college, we took a group photo among the friends. Just the span of months and he had been close with most of us in our group. His ‘Bindaas’ mind, friendly attitude had won heart of few of us in class but there was someone who had taken away his heart…!!!! May be he had considered her as girl of his dream or the girl of his type.
Before I came to know his story (Earlier), I used to think this myth had happened with myself only . While attending same class, found a girl too beautiful, felt like seeing her again and again, a day and another day, falling in love with her (not aware how and since when), she start coming in dream (never knowing by whose permission), then feeling like talking with her (but always failed to do so), loved her presence in surrounding (though heart beats too much and getting afraid of things that might happen further) and always felt like expressing (without knowing the correct time and not thinking about consequences of thereafter).
And then….!!! Rejection, A big NO NO NO NO….!!!! those ignorance might had came in the form of silence, still they keep echoing, in our life, not for a single moment but in the every other days that keep coming. And many of the times, things being completely out of control… Sometime feeling like, ‘had I knew all these would happen, I would have turned my way the every-time I meet her’
Whenever I go on to flashback my college life, I get these moments at the top of anything. Odd reactions from the people who loved and care me, some motivations and few inspirations were all that guided me to bring another fresh day in my life and finally their effort succeed in bringing my life back to track today, not empty hand, but with the vast knowledge of self-realization and meaning of true love, still with the enormous respect to that sweet pie.
“So will you be coming back in Diwali vacation?” I asked him.
“Might be, I wish to meet all of you again”
“All of you…..? does this all of you consists someone very very special too? Hmmm Hmmm?”
“NO yaar… only you friends” he replied with little shyness.
“Do you think you will be able to see her ever again?”
“may not be, I too wish I wont be disturbing her again. But Life is full of uncertainty and we never know what things might happened tomorrow”
Ahh… his answer reminded me of the time when one of my college friend had asked me, “Do you think you will be able to see her even again after college?’ and I had answered similarly.
Along with few other conversation, we reached bus depot. Wishing him good bye and all the best, I boarded bus for my place as he moved towards his home. After I got a place to seat in bus, I gave a moment of thought to his relations and started comparing with the one I possessed two years ago in my college life, both as one sided love…
He was 6 feet tall, fair enough, undoubtedly good looking, romantic enough and talented one too… They had similarity in context to regionalism and carried no linguistic differences too. if such proposals can be turned down, then i never had any chance of acceptance (that was what I usually used to think), not only because of my simple and unromantic look but also the various aspects of differences that we carried among each other and sometime even thanking God that I never had courage to express her my thoughts directly or formally.
Like I was in the support of his love, and like my friends were in the support of my one sided love, I am sure there will be many people, always in support of their friends and his love(despite not knowing the correct scenario and sometime even after knowing their own friend has committed a mistake) . A guy falls in the love with a girl. Sometime he manages to propose or sometime he may not be able to communicate properly. Then rejection might come in the form of either silence or ignorance. His friends thinks he loves that girl so much and she should had understand him. Somebody comments that girl as “selfish, egoistic girl with hell of attitude…” and many more comments, without knowing what was on the other side of heart… without knowing what actually made her do so, without knowing was she comfortable in doing all these?
In those last two years, since I first saw her in my college life, I had always observed her as a very sensitive girl. When ever I went depth to her those smiles, I found they reflecting purity of her heart. When ever I saw tears in those eyes, they had not only pains carried, but also innocence of her heart t. With time I realized, regards to my thoughts I had expressed, those silence existed in her just because they were meant to happen. She ignored my ‘call’, not because of her characteristics, but may be, or surely, we were never meant to be for each other in the book of destiny.
For those who don’t believe on the unseen words of destiny, they must try to find themselves in their failure relationship. If we cant reunion our relation, we shouldn’t search right of blaming the other. Might be, the other partner is also in the severe pain because of separation. May be, they will also need plenty of time to forget all these then why do we lament so deep as if we are the only having heart and why do we react as if God has given the every pain to only us?
If fell in love with someone, I should understand it was never her fault. i can never blame her for her silence. She has her own world, she has her own set of rules. Despite all these, she showed her presence in my life and I should thank God for sending her in my life because those moments taught me more about my life, my love and my world.
Happy be the world… Keep loving but never misunderstand the people you have ever loved… Don’t think you ever loved the wrong person, but may be loving that person was the way to lead you towards the perfection in life, knowledge and of course, perfection in love….
I am sure, some one day when you will wake up and find a wonderful and complete morning which you had ever dreamed, you will understand, today you are happy just because those happening of past as they were more than memorable…!!!
God bless all of us…!!!